sometimes it sucks being a schoolmans wife. ( every night i'm out here on the couch while hes in there doing homework...and its only week 3)
those women who say "they love being pregnant"...I need to have a little convo with them! Are they insane??? it blows. unless you like being sick to your stomach all day loooooooong, with zero zip nata energy. i guess they just have babies that love them and dont make them sick & give them a wonderful glow. oh babies...its a love/hate relationship. mostly love. (:
i like the band Vampire Weekend. its good blogging music.
i've worn sweats & my hairs been in a nasty bun for two weeks....and i seriously need to give my eyebrows some tlc. 1st tri is so glamorous.
sleeping lessons by the shins is the best. so peaceful. it makes me want to take a bus through san francisco and then have a picnic and watch the clouds go by. idk why. thats just what comes to mind.
i wish I still loved food. i remember loving food. one day. & when that day comes I'm gonna eat and eat and eat.
i love my booboo bear. paisley. i miss her. i wanna go wake her up and snuggle her. & then i'd regret it.
i hate my hair. i never know what to do with it. its not straight. its not curly. and its not pretty wavy. its something else. its so boring right now...its making me sick. & i loose so much of it every day!!! how am i not bald? seriously.
sometimes i feel like i'm looking to the future so much that i'm not making the present what it could be. its so easy to get wrapped up in the stresses of the present & to look forward to the future. like..."one day i'll have a house"..."one day we wont be in school"...."one day P wont be in diapers"....etc....
I need to make every day better. maybe after this fun part of the pregnancy is over...cuz right now i'm just trying to get out of bed & take care of my toddler.
i miss feeling free sometimes.
i really want a kitten and an english bulldog. & i want him to skateboard. is that to much to ask?
why do I let Satan make me feel inferior??? i'm not good enough. i'm not smart enough. i'm not talented enough. uuuuhhhhhhhhh. only every once and awhile. all the other times I'm a-ok with who I am.
i love my hubby. hes good to me. he believes in me. he loves me & paisley. he's such a hard worker. its crazy. never thought i would marry a carrot top. but now i think red is sexy and adorable. he's so cute. and he makes me laugh & cuddles good so thats all that matters.
i like our new place.
it's hard to bond with a blueberry who's sucking your will to live. but i am so excited to have this sweet baby. to create this precious little miracle. i am so so SO grateful to my Heavenly Father who is giving me this opportunity. i hope i'm a good mom.
2 kids. this is gonna be crazy. right now i feel like two is a good number of kids. but i know me. i'll fool myself again.
i'm addicted to vampire diaries. i have a love/hate relationship with damon. i was into gossip girl but dan & serena were pissing me off.
i miss being by family. life use to seem so simple. all you had to do was chill at home, look cute for boys, go to school for 1/2 a day, and hang out with friends.
i wonder where my little family will end up?
i hope i can travel one day. i wanna travel a lot. top 5: italy, ireland, greece, hawaii, & africa
i'm gonna start drawing again. i love drawing. and i use to be somewhat good. maybe i can take a class???
photography is intimidating. so much to learn. i love it. but it scares me too. i want to be good. i would love to work with film.
i wanna live on the beach. in hawaii. i'll have tan kids, we'll play on the beach every day, and we'll eat pineapple every morning.
so ya i'm done thinking. my brain is going into como mode. good night.
7 comments:
Is this Weston's first semester ever?
You're so cute and you can do whatever you want in this world!
It's good to get it all out;0 Especially with soo many big changes you are going through (like 2nd pregnancy, a move, and hubbys school starting)!!! Your doing a great job Kins, just remember this is the time for you to do nothing but take care of that little baby inside you and the cute little girl sitting beside you;0 Just give it a couple more weeks and you will start feeling better!!! Trust me when I say I kind-of understand what you are feeling (it was soo tough when Dave was going to school- but it was soo worth it), and since I still feel bad from regnancy I can totally understand how frustrating it is too feel sick soo much! Love you tons and you look beautiful no matter what you do;0
oh man I totally know how you feel, especially the husband in school and pregnant and just moving to a new place aaand being away from family thing. oh and the hair issues. It's not fun with your husband in school at ALL. I'm sure there are other cute moms like you in your ward though who would love to hang out and commiserate about their husbands being in school. maybe that would help once you're feeling better.
I used to get my hair cut at Hair We Are, it's right next to Brohlims. I always looooved the haircuts they gave me. My friend used to cut hair there but I think she has moved now. There was another girl who was really good but I don't know her name. Sorry, some help I am.
Having a husband in school does suck. It feels like it is going to last forever. Finding time together is hard. If you guys need a date night, I'll babysit P for you. Being preggo w/ a busy toddler is no fun either. Hope you feel better soon.
You can do it! And I'm with you 100% on the Hawaii thing. Now... to convince the husbands.
If you don't attempt to start painting again I might murder you! I'm always so jealous of that talent that you share with arielle and mom. It's also interesting that each of you have your own style with it. I think you have such a natural talent with pictures, don't let it scare you, keep working, everyone starts somewhere.
I miss my best friends:(
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